A4 Final Submission

Image and text

Back Course Work

Research Context and Critical Analysis Development Initial Submission

Tutor Feedback Reflection Rework Final Submission

 

There are places that remind me of them, somehow there seems to be a void or vacuum in that place where their existence has ceased to be. It leaves a hollow place somewhere inside of me.

  • Stephen Barney

Reflective Commentary

The words used for this series were designed to act as a structure on which to rest the entire body of work, rather than using a series of words to underpin each image, I was given this idea from studying the work of Sharon Boothroyd “If you get Married Again Will You Still Love Me” (Sharonboothroyd.com, 2017). I decided that I would create a series of images based on the void of loss that is experienced in those special places that remind you of the people you have lost, the words I wrote were as follows:

There are places that remind me of them, somehow there seems to be a void or vacuum in that place where their existence has ceased to be. It leaves a hollow place somewhere inside of me.

These words reflect the empty feeling you get when you are in a place that has memories of your loved one associated with it such that it creates and emotional wellspring when you look at that place. Mary C Lamia Ph.D, suggests that “Remembering an event, a situation, or a person can evoke a shiver of excitement, the heat of anger, or the anguish of grief.  Although emotion that is activated by a memory may not be felt as intensely as the actual experience, the recall can be enjoyable or painful nonetheless” (Lamia Ph.D, 2017).

I wanted to create images that should have contained either my Mum or my Dad, but because of my loss they could no longer take part in the image and by this absence highlight the nature of that loss and the void that is experienced at the moment the place or object triggers that memory.

In each of the images a place or a combination of place and object stirs a strong emotional response in me to the memory it triggers. I remember fondly the time and event it triggers and this is almost instantly replaced by that sense of loss and a void inside of me. I chose to represent their loss or absence as a void within the image which I created by redacting the image, I chose to redact the image by burning a hole where they should have been to reflect the heat and pain of that loss.

I tested each image against the text and only chose to use those images that invoked the strongest reaction in me and often the ones that made me cry while I was making them. This was a deeply emotional process that may feel a little vernacular to those who are not involved. By its nature this project fits tightly into my personal semiosphere of experience, however it also crosses into the experiences of my family and friends, by talking about the reactions this work stimulates within me a similar response may be stimulated in others who have had similar life experiences. It is true however that anyone who has lost someone can try my test, look for a place that has a really strong link to your loved one and recall the memory, I guarantee there will be a strong emotional response though I don’t guarantee it will make you cry.